Appt. Update

Went back to the dr today. My blood test show neg for preg so that is good, means everything has passed and thankfully I didnt have to have a d&c. She said we can start trying again in 2 months. So I am going to focus on getting healthy and trying to drop a few pounds before then and we shall see what happens.

Feeling A Bit Better

The miscarriage actually went "smoothly" not sure if that's the word I should be using. But I didn't have much pain, not much more than my normal periods. My bleeding was very heavy and friday night I passed all the tissue, etc. So Im hoping that its all passed and I wont need a D&C, I am so afraid of having to have that done.

Today I am feeling much better and the bleeding has slowed considerably. I am pretty anxious to get back on the ttc wagon and get pregnant again. I think I have come to terms with this miscarriage and the fact that I have such a strong faith in Jesus has comforted me so much! Knowing that my angel is in heaven and in Jesus' arms, and that someday I will see my baby again, has been a tremendous help!

I am seeing the midwife again on Tuesday March 21st to confirm the miscarriage and to get some info on when we can start trying to conceive (ttc) again.

Baby Angel in Heaven

Sadly I woke up at 4am with alot of bleeding and clotting. Went to see my midwife at 9am and she sent me for an ultrasound and bloodwork. The ultrasound was internal and there was no baby. Most likely I miscarried in the middle of the night. I have to go back sunday and have more blood taken and then see the midwife on Tues. We do plan to keep trying after this is over and that is the only thing keeping me positive right now. I never knew how hard this would be and how it just tears your heart out to hear the news. But I know God has His reasons and He knows what is best for us. Thanking Him for me knowing my baby is with Jesus now.

New Look

I decided I wanted to do a mini site instead of just a blog page...after all my jelly bean deserves the very best! So I will be working on these pages in the next few days. I really want to get a tag board up first, any suggestions please let me know.

I think the fact that I am pregnant has sunk in! The first couple days it sounded so weird to say it or tell someone lol. It was like, it wasn't really happening to me...too good to be true maybe. I didn't feel pregnant at all.

I am starting to though. I have been craving Meat Lover's Pizza from Pizza Hut!! I really want some bad! Haven't had any yet, and am trying hard to be good! I am pretty hungry though. I do drink lots of water, go me!

Also my breasts are SOOOO sore! They are already getting bigger and they hurt so bad, especially when someone hugs me! OUCH! I know this will go away for a while very soon, Im just counting the days. I haven't had nausea yet, knock on a big slab of wood! I hope I dont get it! That would be awesome!

The next appt with the dr will be on April 6 at 9:20 am with Dr. Seigal - he delivered Emira. Then the next one I will be seeing Debbie my midwife again.

It's Official!

I am pregnant! 6 weeks and 3 days!

In all of the drs visits this past month with my pneumonia, I had blood taken and tested. The first visit I was supposed to have a pregnancy test to make sure I wasn't pregnant before we started my meds. So I thought that they did test and I wasn't pregnant since they got my results and never said that I was. I was taking Amox, Avelox, Albuterol, Prednisone, Ciprodex and Codeine cough syrup and a I also received a shot for my sinus infection and a chest xray. My period was already 2 weeks late, and when it didnt come the first week, I took a home test that was negative. Must be the meds and sickness making me skip my period, I thought.

This past Wednesday I was called in to get more meds, Ketek, because my blood tests showed that I had mycoplex and luginella pneumonia. I told the nurse that I still had not had my period and she said I would need a pregnancy test. I told her that I supposedly had one the first day I seen the doctor 2 weeks ago. No pregnancy test was ever done. So they took more blood, this time specifically for the pregnancy test.

On my way home, something told me that I needed to take another home test just to be sure before I started this new antibiotic Ketek, because it was so strong. So I picked one up, went home and took it, and seen the + sign! Now you have to know I was soooo excited to be pregnant, I have wanted a baby for sooooo long! But I was scared out of my mind knowing that I had taken all these meds and had an Xray too. So I called Rita (nurse who is also my cousin and neighbor - lucky me!) and she said that the xray was fine because it was an upper chest xray and didnt affect my abdomen. Also that most of the meds were ok but she would talk to the dr and call me on Thurs.

Shane came home and I gave him his birthday present - his birthday is Saturday - which was the test!! He just looked at it, Im sure he had no clue what the lines meant. He just said, "Whoa!" I said "is 'whoa' all you have to say, is that what I get to scrapbook?" LOL. I know he was happy, we have been talking about having a baby so much lately and had been trying since Oct.

Yes that is right, we were trying. We both know it was wrong because we still aren't married yet, but I am just thankful that the Lord has blessed us. I have been praying for a baby for so long. We are still planning to get married in June. We are not going to "bump" up the wedding just because I am pregnant. We want to get married because we love each other and want to commit our lives to each other.

Ok back to the story. I was so nervous and so excited, hoping and praying that everything was going to be ok but I was cramping all night, couldn't sleep, eating everything. Finally was able to sleep for a couple hours after Shane and Emira left on Thurs morning. Then Rita called me and said she had a long talk with the dr. and he said for her to re-assure me that everything should be fine. The meds I took had no known side effects on pregnant women and the xray wouldnt have bothered me either. WONDERFUL!! But because I was cramping she made me an emergency appt with my OB-GYN.

I got more tests, blood and urine, and will have to wait for the pap and blood to come back. But the physical test went very well. My midwife says that everything looks excellent and I am very healthy! Cramping is normal and is probably just my nerves along with my uterus growing. GOod GOOd news!! I am so relieved now and the cramping has even subsided significantly!

Came home and told my dad - who I was scared most to tell. He was furious when I told him I was pregnant with Emira so I was really dreading it. Told my Dad, I am going to have a baby and told him all about the meds and the story above. He wasn't mad, I know he likes Shane alot. Emira was there when I told him, and she said "PawPaw, there is a baby inside mommy's tummy, dont you know!!" It was like she already knew LOL. But Im sure that was because Shane and I were always talking about how much we wanted a baby.

Shane called his parents and told them last night. He says he thinks they are happy, he was really nervous about telling them. I think most everyone is happy for us! I know we are so happy and feel very blessed and are thankful to God for all He has given us!

So now I am here, happy and with a little miracle inside me!!

Jelly Bean Tales

I picked this name after doing a search on yahoo for pregnancy journal names. Seems like all the good ones were taken and then I came across a photo of what the baby should look like at 6weeks and it looks just like a little jelly bean lol. So Jelly Bean Tales it is!